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Spa Day

Can’t go to the spa because of the quarantine? No problem!

I turned my unused garden tub into a private spa area. The tub is not really deep enough to soak in and that is the only reason I would use it.  Eventually, we are going to remodel the bathroom and put in a soaking tub, but until then, this is a great alternative. Nothing is permanent. With the shower curtain pulled no one would ever know it was there.




I can read or listen to music while giving myself a facial, manicure, and pedicure.


This is going to be my new favorite place in the house.

What did you do this weekend?


Boy, that was a fast year

It has been a year since I tried and failed miserably to blog. I am off work until the first of the year with back problems. If the insurance company agrees, I will be having surgery December 4,2019. I cannot stand or sit straight up, like at a desk, for more than 15 to 20 minutes without my pain escalating. The longer I try, the more I hurt. So I have been spending most of the day in my recliner, leaned back, which is semi comfortable. I get up ever so often and clean the house a bit. Try cleaning your house in 15 minute increments. Fun! And cooking. Let’s just say that the Instapot I rarely use is about to start earning its place on my counter.

So anyway, I am going to give this blog another chance. Work on my writing, try some reviews. Really just a mish mash of different things. I have a YouTube channel I might try to do some really short videos for. I added a Journal page on here that is for short daily musings that don’t warrant a blog post. Medical updates and whatnot.

Thanks for reading!


kenzi fashion // season 2

When an author is trying to sell a character as an ancient immortal being, but they keep acting like a regular angsty /hormonal teenager





Originally posted by trendingifs

Yeah, I don’t know why that’s hard to understand if you think about human brain chemistry. Your brain doesn’t finish maturing until around age 25, and some of the last things to finish up are the parts of your brain responsible for impulse control, emotional stability, and making good judgments. So if you got turned into a vampire, let’s say, at age 16, you’re going to have the judgment, emotional stability, and impulse control of a 16-year-old, mixed with some serious emotional issues if you transform into an immortal (vamp, ghost, whatever) before the big blow of sexual puberty because then you’ve got the mental capacity of an adult sort of and the body of a child, and when that happens, you get characters like Okiku (ghost)

and Moaning Myrtle (she’s been around for at least 50 years)

Vampire Princess Miyu

Claudia the Vampire (she was in her 80s or 90s)

the Master Vampire Nikolaos (she was 400+ years old, made into a vampire when she was about 12-13)

and David from Lost Boys, who’s like, 35 or 50 and he’s physically about 17.

That whole “your brain not maturing and your body not aging while still gathering experience” is seriously bad and should affect an immortal more than you might think. That’s just taking in physiology, but then adding in upbringing, cultural roots, exposure to people. This guy 

acts like a teenage boy around girls even though he’s in his late 20s when he meets Jane because he has zip romantic experience. 

This girl 

can’t handle family drama with any kind of finesse and she’s 200+ years old, due to being out of practice.

This kid 

has no idea how to talk to girls or make friends after a few years because he’s a 40-year-old vampire in a 14-year-old body and he’s out of practice.

And this moron

can’t handle relationships because of years of racist treatment and bad breakups.

There’s more to making someone immortal than just being an immortal if they’re physically not an adult yet.

The issues I take with that the limiting factor in maturity may even be neurological development.  There’s the experiential aspect of it and the effect of the peer group.  So a normal 16-year old and a theoretical immortal 16 year old aren’t the same. 

The brain development between 16-25 is a 9 year experience, and the life experience is also.  But if that 16 year old (let’s make him a boy named Bob) is exposed to life experience spanning hundreds or thousands of years, even the observational knowledge alone would give that “16 year old” a vastly increased functional knowledge.  There’s a much larger ability to learn from sheer practice alone once a person has seen or repeated a practice multiple times.  

You see that even now – if a kid is exposed to a certain type of arguing style, they’ll repeat it.  But if they’re taught a different way, they’ll adopt that which has been the most reinforced.  It’s part of the rationale behind intervention for high-risk teens (they’re not fully developed, but they can be taught not to indulge in destructive behaviors.)  It’s also why a teenager can blow up at Mom or Dad but be perfectly fine with their rules/discipline of their grandparents.  Or argue with a sibling in a way they won’t with their parents.

Also, the brain development is combined with a hormonal component: this includes the capacity for knowledge acquisition (especially in language) and in the “permanence” of memories obtained at that time.  Specifically, what a person learns with their teen brain has a high level of permanence. 

About the impulsiveness – apparently, it’s not that teens don’t think about what they’re doing:  they overthink it.  An adult tends to quickly assess a situation and also quickly decide on their plan of action (to include the question “do I want to get involved at all”.)  But teenagers appear to take a longer time to deliberate and go over possible outcomes.  The problem is that they overestimate the benefits, and underestimate the consequence of their actions (a lack of knowledge, not a lack of deliberation.) 

Also, their decision-making is influenced by what’s known as “arousal” – an emotional heightening.  This can be generated by their peer environment.  But a normal 16-year old surrounded by high-school peers (at the same level of experiential knowledge) is in a different emotional environment than Bob the immortal (does Bob truly have peers?)

It looks like risk-taking is also influenced by this.  Experiments with teens and adults show them to be similarly risk-averse.  But the adults were less likely to be in a state of arousal while in company with their peers, while the teens were more likely to do rash things while in groups of their age-mates.  So the psycho-social component may be more of an issue than the neuro-biological component.

Teenagers can be angsty, but it isn’t an effective interpersonal technique, and that’s why
teens don’t act that way with everyone, or when it undercuts their
better interests.   Unless there’s some real issue, they tend not to make the same mistakes over and over again if those mistakes are sufficiently penalized.  

no good transitional comment here, but

I’d expect Bob not to want to interact with teenagers, unless teenagers
could be at the top of the political, economic and power tiers in their

Psychically, I’d expect Bob to be very messed up and have a lot of difficulty relating to a young person (who has their own emotional needs that aren’t fully self-managed.)  It’s
hard to be driven from your home (and one would, if they were immortal
and unable to age.)  That would be really problematic for someone young
enough to be expected to look different in a year or so.  And if one can’t discuss this, it’d be a big problem.  This is why I dislike stories pairing teen-immortals with normal teens:  take out the arbitrary cool-factor of not dying (that feeds into the reader’s adulation of youthful-appearing immortality) and you’ve got a really-damaged character that their partner tries to redeem.  IRL, I’d call that a toxic relationship that, if I saw that in my teens would have troubled me, and now would have made me use every legal trick in the book to separate the two.

So if Bob is made immortal in the teen years, what could be more
likely (based on what we know about the brain and about teens vs. adults strategies for decisionmaking) is that Bob would  display a high level of
knowledge (which would look like intelligence), with a high capacity to
learn and retain information from experiences he’s having – he’d be a very quick study.   That would quickly override “typical” teenage behaviors.

Instead of
being angsty and impulsive, I would expect Bob to be deeply cunning, manipulative,
and highly self-aware – again, due to the effect of seeing the results
of his earlier behavior.  He would know how to use his youthful
appearance to his advantage, so he might play the angsty teenager for show, but with a very calculated reason for doing so.  Hormonally, he should be highly sexual.  So he should be emotionally dangerous territory, for a real teenager. 

I think in literature, the only way they make 16-year-old immortal = 16 year old is by severely isolating the immortal.  Mainly by giving them a sufficient trauma that the person isn’t intrinsically motivated to seek out the world due to mistrust, or by saddling them with a responsibility that make leaving an emotional wrong (emotional blackmail).    Otherwise, I’d expect a characters like (can’t remember the names) from Lucifer who were made immortal as a teenagers.  They were more mature than their adult human counterparts, because the immortals had to be. 

I get super annoyed when 16-year-old immortal = 16 for the reasons I indicated.  But what would interest me is immortality used as a proxy for childhood exposure to trauma, or a proxy for “newly-outsider” status:  where the MC looks like a child, but their exposure to the world has given them an adult’s functional knowledge.  

HOLY SHIT YA’ALL. Is this what happens when the smart people find your dumb posts? This is super interesting, thank you!

Awesome and eye opening, both as a writer and reader.


Northern Hunter.




If you can’t find a place on your blog for Patrick Stewart in a bathtub dressed like a lobster, then your blog probably doesn’t deserve such majesty anyway.

It has returned to my dash and I cannot fight the compulsion to reblog…

the patrick lobster appears only once in a thousand years, reblog for good luck



  • last two letters of your first name
  • middle two letters of your last name
  • first two letters of your mother’s name
  • last letter of your father’s name

mine would be Urlelan. Reblog and tag this with yours!





Gracia Scale Top

#clothes for riding dragons

#clothes for slowly becoming the dragon you were born to be



Headdresses by Miss G Designs

Vivienne up and glowed up on our asses. LOL

These are so awesome. I can imagine some of my characters wearing them.

What if Bruce Wayne is actually in Arkham the whole time and Batman is just a delusion he has. All of his ‘villains’ are the orderlies and doctors who work there.


“Poison Ivy” is the nurse who sedates him when he gets out of control

“Two-Face” is an abusive orderly who acts nice when the doctors are around and then beats up the patients when their backs are turned

“Riddler” is a therapist who asks him questions that he has a hard time answering

“Mad Hatter” is a hypnotherapist who Bruce is convinced is trying to brainwash him

and of course his arch-nemesis..

“Dr. Joe Car” and his assistant “Dr. Harleen Quinzel” see Bruce as their top patient, both desperately trying to bring the man back to sanity, and Batman will fight with all he has to protect gotham from “Joker” and “Harley Quinn”

The signs as dragons

Aries: biggest dragon of them all and is able to breathe fire in a range up to 10 meters or 32 feet from where it stands and therefor the most feared dragon. It has jet black scales and intimidating purple eyes.
Taurus: has white shimmering scales and if the sun shines on the scales in a correct angle, it’ll appear in different colours, creating beautiful rainbows across the sky. Humans are very fond of this dragon.
Gemini: can appear in various colours since it sheds its scales once a year, changing its colour randomly. Likes to travel and can be found all around the world. It isn’t bound to a specific place.
Cancer: lives in a hidden place and has hardly ever been seen by the human eye, but it’s highly sought by them because it’s said that drinking its blood will cure any kind of disease.
Leo: able to breathe burning blue hot fire, roasting anyone coming near it. It has golden scales worth a lot of money, but hard to take down due to their strong stamina.
Virgo: it has steely, sharp scales that can cut through anything. Humans like to hunt them down for their scales, using them to craft weapons. Therefor only very few of them are left.
Libra: is the most intelligent dragon. Clever enough to learn how to speak and interact with humans. In rare cases it can form a very strong bond to a certain human. Due to their similar minds, humans choose not to hunt them.
Scorpio: is purple with a very sharp tail producing deadly poison at the tip and therefore one single stab is able to kill. Very cunning when hunting and precise at aiming. Lives in mountain caves.
Sagittarius: smaller than the average size of a dragon, but has the fastest wings due to its light weight and is able to reach higher above the clouds than any other dragon.
Capricorn: only dragon to have horn on its head, which are highly desirable to human-kind. It has big silky-looking wings that are able to blow away enemies when flapping them.
Aquarius: a slim long dragon with blue scales, which makes it a very fast camouflaged swimmer. Can hold its breath up to 20 minutes under water. It lures the prey into water and wraps itself around the prey, letting it drown.
Pisces: it lives in freezing climates and has thick white scales to protect itself from the cold. Instead of fire it breathes ice, freezing its enemies and preys to death.

If you can tell stories, create characters, devise incidents, and have sincerity and passion, it doesn’t matter a damn how you write.

Somerset Maugham
(via maxkirin)





Publisher Synopsis:
Her world ends at the edge of the vast domed barrier of energy enclosing all that’s left of humanity. For two hundred years the city has sustained this barrier by harvesting its children’s innate magical energy when they reach adolescence. When it’s Lark’s turn to be harvested, she finds herself trapped in a nightmarish web of experiments and learns she is something out of legend itself: a Renewable, able to regenerate her own power after it’s been stripped.

Forced to flee the only home she knows to avoid life as a human battery, Lark must fight her way through the terrible wilderness beyond the edge of the world. With the city’s clockwork creations close on her heels and a strange wild boy stalking her in the countryside, she must move quickly if she is to have any hope of survival. She’s heard the stories that somewhere to the west are others like her, hidden in secret—but can she stay alive long enough to find them? 

I just might have to check this out


His Fair Assassin trilogy by Robin LaFevers

Summary of Grave Mercy

Seventeen-year-old Ismae escapes from the brutality of an arranged marriage into the sanctuary of the convent of St. Mortain, where the sisters still serve the gods of old. Here she learns that the god of Death Himself has blessed her with dangerous gifts—and a violent destiny. If she chooses to stay at the convent, she will be trained as an assassin and serve as a handmaiden to Death. To claim her new life, she must destroy the lives of others.

Ismae’s most important assignment takes her straight into the high court of Brittany—where she finds herself woefully under prepared—not only for the deadly games of intrigue and treason, but for the impossible choices she must make. For how can she deliver Death’s vengeance upon a target who, against her will, has stolen her heart?

Perfect For:

  • Fans of Historical Fiction
  • Those who love a healthy portrayal of romances
  • Fans of strong, realistic female protagonists
  • Those who enjoy lyrical writing and well done plots
  • Fans of fantasy and adventure

Purchase via Book Depository

Reblogging for reference


a creation myth for my storytelling class! i tried something kinda different with this one, and it was a ton of fun